i realised sth abt human after calming myself down these few days.
people whom seem to be your best friend, are those who really hurts u the most when they do sth. they get real harsh on you that nobody else has before and they do things that betray you, and they were the last to expect betrayals from. stuff happened, and i finally know what some ppl mean by the cunning side of everyone.
some ppl just dont dare to voice their thoughts out, like what i said to koiheng the other day. they dont dare to do this and that, WTH. will u just have some guts?
some ppl are reallly cunning, they appear to be ur best friend, try to know everything abt u, but end, does nth but spread abt it. and regarding that, i still cant get over it. er hem.
dance was fun yesterday. haha, though i know we didnt do as well, its the process that mattters what. when i went home, i started blasting my phone and danced to it. and i thought how silly we were not daring enough and to just stick to normal youtube's lame vid.
i just cant accept whats going on these few days. ppl are so hot-tempered and you are realy like HUH?!? whats wrong with you. the cunning side of ppl is just too scary, too scary for me to adapt and to accept. i just cant do it.
lessons learnt: -trust nobody except yourself. and then again, i say, everyone has a cunning side and the cunning side of me is that i have decided to keep things to myself and not to talk abt it anymore. i guess its the best decision i have ever made in my life.
yesterday was fun fun.((: went to shi bei's house for her early bday party and 6 gra class gathering(though like ard 10 6 grac-ians turned up due to eoys.) anws, met jer early early at 330 to go northpoint first to buy presents.(((: took neos too at timezone but the quality was damn freakin lousy. cos its 3 bucks. -.-
went to interchange and met confusing buses! irritating! D: took 85* in the end and the journey to her house was only 15 mins? so fast! btw, i like sjhibei's add. 15 countryside road. the end.((: so cool right? only 3 words.
anws, met new friends from RGS(since shi bei is there) they were real nice kays! they were damn outgoing and loud, as in seriously loud! and they made me change the impressions of RGS girls. i thought they will be wearing specs, carryying a book with them ard like a nerd. but who knows, they are real fun to be wtiH! :DDD JingYi and JingYao, they are really fun and were the first 2 jer and i met. (((: amazing things happened, which seems like a curse( a nice and cool and positive curse though )
anws, soon, ppl start popping out. all the 6 grac-ians who went were Koi Heng, Elvin, KaiJun, Jian LIn, Jermaine, Fanny. thats all. sads sads. nvm, wait for mr ng's wedding to come then see everyone! yay! :DDD
spoiled tong's reputation. created trouble on fb. :P oopppss! bully junior sia! haha, but well, debbie and jermaine are always bad. :p
created trouble for koi heng too. msg-ed his soon-to-be-girlfriend on his behalf like, i seriously like you. and i concluded that i cant stand boys' thinking, right, koiheng and alvin and kaijun? i even called the girl on koiheng's behalf, say sth real funny like, hey i am koi heng's super super good friend, and he really really like you, you know. haha, think abt what i said and i am serious. if u find it awkard i will hang up. then talked with her for a while then hang up, so cool.((:
stuff happened..
went home at 12+...
sent jer home..
she left her house at bei's house..
the end..
OH YAH! SHI BEI'S ANOTHER FRIEND called jolene. she is damn HOT okay. as in seriouly hot. she's gotta perfect figure and tan, sexy to the max. isaac almost drooled, haha. too bad, forgot to take pic with her cos she came late and went home early.
all of shibei's clique girls are damn chiou, as in really chiou. not like my imp. og RGS. haha, RGS, rules, the girls RULES MORE.
group pictures.(((: one of the hot guy we saw online? jer and i found jeremy very cute.((:
jingyi and me.((: last pic for the day. ((:
i dont kknow why there is this extra image after this video. haha, i am lazy to edit it, so just leave it there. :P
went for lunch with jasmine aft. school at s11. had chicken rice with jasmine.((: nice. and its only cheaply 3.30 bucks wiih a big bowl of soup.((: went playground to meet elaine and pearlyn. then jasmine and i went to sit the round round thing to spin spin. my first or second round i damn dizzy then jasmine went out first then i ask her stop cos i was flying out but she didn! she turned it mopre extreme instead! finally stopped and i stoodd up and walked, like a drunkard. ten i wanted to mo0ve towards the right but keep going to the left. then i banged the metal notice board! its was like,:BANG! damn loud! pearlyn and elaine kenna shocked then all quickly turned ard. haha, jasmine was like OH-MY-GOSH! ARE U OKAY?? then she quickly help me up. suffereed a few blue-black on knee and on my chin where i kenna hit.-.- then truth-ed with them adn i stuck out my left leg into the sun. so then again, i am unevenly tanned again. cos the front of on top my left knee is tanned and the behind is still as white. the right leg is still as white as ever.-.- I WANT TO GET TANNNEDDD!!! ARGH! EVENLY TANNED!! uneven tans sucks okay, to the max.)): spinned and spinned with elaine and pearlyn. pearlyn first round buai sai liao. she was damn pale aft. that. elaine was quite goodd. she didnt fly out like me and jasmine. i seriously flew out of the thing once but jasmine flew out twice. haha. i sat the most rounds and i was damn not feeling well on the train. cos i keep wanting to vomit but nth gets out. alighted at khatib for a rest and get some fresh air. sat there, almost vommited but swallowed it back. yea, its gross.-.- thanks jasmine who accompanied me.(((:
was damn pale when reached home. my mum thought i died before. WTH. saw eugene at yishun inter. thanks eugene for walking me home, right to my doorstep, thanks.((: if eugene wasnt with me, i guess i would have just fainted with no one knowing. haha, held his hand throughout cos i really cant walk cos i was really dizzzyy. thanks eugene! :DDD
lazy to post pics. will just kope from jasmine's blog. HAHA!
some stuff happened today. was exciting yet i was in a deep dilemma over it. i was affected the whole day over it. i dont know if u were, well, all i knew was while i was laughing, i know i wasnt really laughing. hard to understand? nvm.
lunched out with elaine and pearlyn and mos. talked abt stuff. HAHA. went to swensens with mum to celebrate her bday after that and had ice-cream. BLOATED! then waited for bro and had BBQ chicken for dinner. bro treated! :DDD
i found out sth DAMN INTERESTING TODAY! my bro had a gf when he in sec sch. cos there was this unknown num who msged and i showed him. he ask me guss whose it. then he said, she was my first gf. i was huh!? he then said the girl was from nanyang. then he continued eating his chicken. i was like aiyah, hwa chong guys sure go with NYGh girls one, not amazing! and he choked! i was laughing my ass off luckily not a lot of ppl.((: then talked abt super random stuff then they suddenly ask me if i got bf. i was like, no..wont la..then my bro keep saying, have then say la..nth is wrong. we wont blame u. i was damn shocked and stuff.. fine, no more elaboration.. BYE!
went for cmc today. sabotaged elaine, heehee. gotta some retarded pics of her, well...haha! took loadsa pics in the A&L centre. HAHA! was damn fun in short.(:
waited for jasmine at circle line to go home with her with elaine and pearlyn.(: talked super random and MATURE stuff. well.. haha!
i concluded with something today which nobody will believe. elaine, jasmine and pearlyn scolds fuck! haha, so cool, never expected it to happen! i will post the pics next time because i am really busy these few days, as in real busy.
suffering these few days as in i am really confused abt some stuff..
i am really confused about whether to give it to you. should i? should i not? can you tell me what to do? i really gotta a lot to tell you, as in seriously a lot.
the nice nice plastic bag.(: hot... the shirt i bought for kel! :D haha, random pic! taken in aust., on the city cat! MISSING THE CITY CAT TO THE MAX NOW! )))):
i was taking a pic of my bro's present when he suddenly came home! shall give him at 1200.(:
tagged by jasmine to do a quiz.(:
answer this quiz truthfully. its a MUST. for every answer you put as 'dunno' or something with the same meaning as that, you must put FIVE people's name to tag. so, if you dont put any 'dunno', you just have to tag ONE person [or more, as you wish], and if you put ten 'dunno', you have to tag fifty people. get it? :D
#1 what's your first favorite song? ANS: Dancing in the moonlight by toploader!
#2 Who's your first enemy? ANS:err..forgot! :P
#3 Who's your first favorite teacher? ANS: MS SERENE ONG! :D
#4 Have you scored any hundred marks for any of your exams? ANS: yea, when i was in pri 1 for my chi. -.-
#5 Do you prefer Deepavali, Hari raya, Christmas, or Chinese new year more? ANS: chinese new year! $$$
#6 What is your favorite english name? ANS: samantha, or rather, i dont have a fav. one. :D
#7 Who is you first indian friend? ANS: ramitha! :P
#8 Who helped you to make a blog;xanga;wordpress etc when you just started? ANS: jasmine! (((:
#9 Do you prefer colouring or drawing? ANS:COLOURING! colouring is always easier.(:
#10 What's your favourite birthday present? ANS: my ipod! (from kel, dor and krystal!)
Now, tag your friends according to how many 'dunno' you've put, or if none, as much as you like!
i dont have any dunno lehsss.. okay, i shall tag all the 1 faithians with blog to do it! (((: HAHA.
i jsut gave him the shirt a min ago and he loves it! yay! although he knows the price,-.- since FCUK is just opp. nike at wisma, but well, his 21 and deserves a nice nice present! HAHA! yay, he loves it although its the white one and his collecting the black one. haha, yay! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BROTHER KELVIN! you are 21 now!
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to kelvin, happy birthday to you!
janice is headless!?!??! i love her jacket though.
do u think she is shitting really or jsut some fake thing? censored!
if u look clearly, the clear things at the background are actually the scenery of s'pore the suntec and UOB buildings..u know..
my fav. pic of the day
we occupied the whole table..with food thats occupying everything. HAHA.
there was no syfc today but still, went back to study with E E and janice. its pure handcore mugging, seriously. they were there since 8 and i went ard 11. haha, da bao-ed wonton and chicken rice..the smell is tempting. studied, ate, meddled with microwave and toaster, invaded the kitchen.(cos we were at the cafe) stuff happened... went to the rooftop then to the lounge to sleep. then the SG came to say we cant lie down there in the lounge. -.- went back to cafe.
talked abt SUPER SICK stuff, as in really sick. like sex, how a guy touches another guy's ass, how sick is EE 's friend, and how sick is their SQ..hahaha, laughed to the max. and i said super loud, u must be beware of HIM... when junkun walked in and he turned back to me..haha..philip wong, yappy, beber, came in to check out on us, lame. then stuff.. went home at 5+..productive studying cos E E and janice really study, as in really study, then i ws thinking if i mix with them often, will i be a geek? cool. imagine debbie with the baggy specs on her face and carrying a book on her hand 24/7. cool.
dear readers, the following msg is nc 16 due to sexual reference. pls do not read it, honestly, if u are under 16. thanks. ITS PURELY abt SEX. and it may excite some readers. idk.
what kind of job excited u the best? blowjobs, handjobs and all the rest. a suck, a rub, a tasty lick, letting him put in yourvirgina, his erected dick.the expressions on ur face makes me go faster. the moan u gave made me rub harder. i ran my fingers along ur genitals , in prepartion for ur cunnilingus.i saw ur erection, phallus in position.i saw ur white ejaculation. full of salty bitter semen. hungry, tired, and still gettting sucked, i closed my eyes while being fucked.
went wisma with elaine after school. she accompanied me to get my bro and mum's bday present. thanks.:))) bought a FCUK shirt for bro, a dorothy perkin's bag for mum. debbie's broke, to the max. a lot of super funny things happened, shall not be mentioned. i was quite worried at first, bt well, its debbie and elaine's dirty little secret. *winks to elaine* [the running part, i meant] walked ard for almost an hour just to look for foood.=.= walked from wisma to ion, then from ion to wisma then to wheelock and finally at taka. spotted mos and we became 2 mad women on the loose, shouting on our way to mos since we are all tired and hungry. and when elaine and debbie are together, what else can we do? heehee. :DDD oh, spent almost a hundred bucks, damn it. feel so poor out of the sudden. ):
smuggled the presents back home with much difficulty. then stuffed everything in to my bag. haha.
meeting the aesthetics ppl on mon? is it on? whose going? i dont really feel like dancing in the void deck sia..so damn freaking unglam. -.- whose in? errr...meihui, gladys,sujie, yongqing,yuheng, julian, jiafa,jiawen and ginola. thats all i guess? but still, so many ppl dancing in the void deck, make so much noise, err...
caught by alsogolf during recess! WTH. during recess, when we are gonna leave!! wth! elaine, gladys and me. was like giving her the -.- face. need to sign contract! walao, first time only sia! cos of my socks and skirt.-.- agreement-if we were to breach the contract, phone will be confiscated for a week or in house suspension for 1 week! WTH right? WTH right? WTH right!?!?!? was damn angry! anws, mr pilo wasn't here so his gotta free period. played finger guessing game with elaine, gladys, jasmine. meihui, sukie and darilyn joined after that. loser must do 10 push-up for gladys, must do 20 star-jump if she lost. haha, i was the only doing push-ups. -.- did more than 100 for today.-.- anws, went for lunch with elaine, gladys, junru, pearlyn and mitreni. reached kfc, thought i lost my wallet, ran back all the way to sch, to look for it. somehow it was on the teacher's table, haha. saw jasmine and jixin before that. then when came back, talked with jasmine for 1/2 hr, then ran back to kfc. by the time i reached, they alr finshed their food.-.- anws, stuff happened and i trained home with mitreni.(: its the end. (:
note: -thanks cornelia for telling me everything. u are my best friend now! :DDD - i learnt to trust nobody except yourself. -its hurts ttm when u find out your closest friends are hiding things from you. -i learn that there are no true friends in this world, i learnt my lesson.
i checked my mail recently and i gotta a conclusion. thanks krystal for the email u sent me. i was very touched of what u said. and as i read, i cried. it taught me how i shall change my thinking and that be more open-minded than what i am now. krystal too taught me that i should be glad that my family members are all either working real hard or studying real hard, like for bro, he studies hard everyday at the school lib and that sis is trying to get a degree there in aust.! i should be happy that we are all striving for the best and that this is all for our future. i must think on the good side, that my dad is working seriously hard, and that if he doesnt give a damn shit abt his job, equals to no car, no dining at restaraunts, no more branded stuff, etc. i must be positive.
note to krystal:
thanks so much for telling me all the bad things that i have been thru. u really cheered me up when i thought i am really done with this family. THANKS A LOT for the e-mail, and that it really is nice of you to send me sth like this. swwweeeetttt, to the MAX. haha, i can really laugh now, my hearts out. and yea, i am really happy to have known great friends who will laugh with me. they were always there to share my joy and cheer me up when i am done! they were always my craaazzyyy(s) and yea, i love them as much as i love you! i really miss you, and i hope to see you again, REAL SOON. (: I LOVE YOU, TO THE MAX. MUACKSSSSS!!! :*
misunderstandings, u suck. so many things happened recently, regardless of whether its domestic affairs or just some problems with friends. this whole thing sucks man. why arent human perfect? why must human make mistakes? to err is human. i dont want to be a human anymore. i dont wanna make mistakes. i want to be a perfectionist. WHY? WHY DO THINGS THAT I DONT LIKE KEEP HAPPENING? WHY IS IT THAT WHAT I WANT FOR NEVER HAPPENS? ALL THE UNGLY TRUTH KEEPS REVEALING. i hate this whole thing, u suck, to the max. you make ppl cry, yet never cheer ppl up. WHY MUST SECRETS OF TRUTH BE REVEALED WHEN I THOUGHT I ALR KNEW THE WHOLE OF THE TRUTH? things are so complicating..i hate it! can someone tell me why??? i keep telling myself i must calm down, i read up on psychology books, yet its of no use, or rather liitle use. sighs, problems sucks. life sucks.
anw, was supopsed to go east coast in the morning at 6 to support bro for his tria. but well, i was lazy, and even if i want to go, and i got inspired to take part, will my mum alloow?? might as well stay at home and surf the net. i dont know of kel is crazzyy or what, taking tria. EVERY SUNDAY. there was nvr a sunday where he hanged out with me, for a swim at safra, like in the past. or even to bowl. his so busy now that i think he forgot he gotta sis. even if his at home, he needed to study for his tutorials, lectures, stuff. if not, he will be out. conclusion: HAVING A BRO=NO BRO reasons: -his always out to hang out -he needs to studdyyy -i need to study too -no common topics -his got tria. how will i have the time to even l0ook at him? i think i forgot how he looked like too..
i realised that my parents are dumb. the age gap btwn are children are so big. since its so big, what can they ttalk abt? no common topics!! age gap btwn bro:8 years. age gapp btwn sis:9 years. tell me what we can talk abt talk abt bikes? talk abt whats new at Nike? talk abt the newest 2XU suits and stuff?
talk abt the latest HK drama? talk abt whats with the strike going on at UQ? talk abt whats with our parents?
we got no topics! they gotta their friends, i gotta my friends too. i shall learn to depend on my friends more than my family. does my siblings know who are my friends? do they even know who are my closest friends? who will they look for if i am lost? no idea, this is what they will say. do they know my blog add.? no idea. do they even know that i am sec 1 this year? i guess so.
one's in aust. one's busy with his tria. and obessed with bikes and everything. craziness.
today is a lame day. the whole day is wasted. did nothing for the entire day. let me list to you, how a lazy pig survives: 1) wakes up and have breakfast. 2)stare into the air for 4 hours! 3)had lunch 4) watch tv for 2hours 5)went out to northpoint to print pics+get a photo frame+get wrapping paper-3hours 6)came home, wrap present stuff 7)went out for dinner 8) just reached home. see, this is the formula to becoming a pig. trust me, its works.(: birthday presents for Jixin. her bdae on mon. haha, bought her a roxy pencil case+photo frame(of course with a pic with took together). haha, debbie's broke.almost 40 bucks is spent on the present, tsk. debbie needs a finace manager to control her finace!
needa buy present for bro someone! his bdae next mon! die le larh, no money! i was planing to get him a FCUK shirt. went to invade his wardrobe to get some ideas on some other cheaper brands to get and i realised that whats in his wardrobe are-calvin klien, armani, guess, fcuk, and the cheapest one is nike.-.- i cant possibly get a nike for him since he works at nike-wisma atria, and if i were to get sth there, its a plain waste of my money. i NEED INSPIRATIONS! PEOPLE GIVE ME IDEAS! i need to get present for my mum too..dead...omgosh la, i am broke, damn broke.
I NEED IDEAS FOR MY BRO AND MUM'S B-DAE! GIVE ME IDEAS!!!
its prettty nice cos its damn funny. but i feel that the ending came too fast. but still, its a nice movie since the part where they get to control the granny and alex seems so real. its give it 4/5! :DDD
went to catch a movie with ginola and junru today. was supposed to meet at 2.15 to catch the 3.15 G-force 3D. end up, ginola and i were late, so went to catch aliens in the attic at 4 instead. i was the latest, fine, i admit. i reached at ard 3.20. was quite shocked when i saw junru standing together waiting for me at the mrt station. woah, ginola's earlier than me. went amk hub, laugh laugh laugh, talk abt random stuff, buy tickets and i end up treating ginola to the movies. 6 bucks cos of student price, and there goes part of my allowance.-.- ginola paid me back 90cents after that for the ticket which he claims, i think. haha, dont know larh, forgot. was supposed to sit with ginola at first, but haha, not-noob debbie[GINOLA!!! :@] went to rush in first, so end up junru sit beside ginola. HAHHAHA. :p and well, end up sit beside a group of boys. junru's bro friends? or someone that ginola and junru knows cos they were talkin abt it. shall ask them later who are they. the retarded guy beside me was kicking me all the way. damn pissed off! so i kick him back larh, of course! can't let a kiddo bully me, hahaha. junru brought her own chips in, EVEN HER OWN COKE. hahaha, cool. was snatching the chips with ginola. -.- went zone x to play after that. ginola sponssered 5 bucks? i dont know, forgot. junru play basketball, of course. she was damn fuunny la! she was pressing a spoiled machine then she realised after ginola told her. then she went to stnad behind the rowdy boys under the cold air-con till i asked her to move to me. HAHAHA. while waiting for junru, ginola and i went to play silent hill-archade. kenna bullied by him la! GINOLA GO SNATCH MY FOOD-MY COKE, BANANA AND ALL MY ENERGY FOOD. until i got no more life left, then he gave me coke.-.- then cos i was protecting him[i think soo..] then i died first-.- ginola tease me throughout! he say debbie, you sure you from shooting anot? your aiming damn lousy leh! -.- wth. he died 15 seconds after i died. haha, you sure die without me one cos nobody to protect you and help u shoot off the zombies. hahahaha! :P then walked ard, went mos to eat. ginola treat junru and he bought a hotdog bread himself. he asked me what i want to eat, i think he was treating, damn, should have just got the nicest burger in mos! ): wasted. OH YA, ginola snatch my phone and go and see whats inside! was running ard mos like crazy kids in rounds and rounds. walao eh, damn embarrassed sia! ginola, you are gonna die for making me so embarrassed just to run for you. -.- talk crap then mali kampong. ginola insisted on not telling me where he taking train to. he keep saying to vivo. but he live in serangoon, alas, dont know lah.
on the trip to the station, funny things happened. haha, shant say since its too funny that i don't know how to say. and i think junru doesnt know. hahahaha, its damn funny-ginola.[tt] :DDD then ginola say his wallet spoil, ask me buy a new one for him! WTH!?!?!? he using Goldlion wallet now, ask me go buy another Goldlion for him?? OMGOSH larh. i wonder when that day will come.
oh ya, mum and bro's b-dae are coming soon. 21 and 23 sep respectively. shit what shld i buy? IDEAS! i think i am gonna get bro a FCUK shirt since he want to collect the series. but mum, i guess, haha, i shall forget. :P
i am in love with todays date! today's when all the lovers get married, when pregnant woman try to get their baby out of womb today. haha. i was thinking, if i were to get married in future, there wont be a chance again for me to have such a nice date since there are only 12 months in the entire calendar. sads. :((( i want my wedding date to be memorable, as for how is it, i will let my future decide, haha.
shooting sucks to the max today. junhui was a damn jerk. he think he black he big ah? not as in those racist kind, but the black as in junhui's kind, sun-tanned to the max. was damn pissed throughout until in the end stuff happened and i scolded shit-your-ass in his face. he just turned away and walk off. hahaa, i dont give a damn shit to you. :P
feel so accomplished today because debbie did 80 push-ups and 20 sit-ups+2 rounds ard the netball court. well, its not a lot, i know. but stil, i cant believe i didn cheat during the push-ups and sit-ups. HAHA. went to J8 with meihui, elaine and pearlyn. ate at LJS. of course gossip larh! talked about SUPER RANDOM stuff and then haha, we went to invade NTUC. what did we do shall not be mentioned as it contains SLIGHT sexual stuff, you know. went to lib and borrowed books. borrowed a samn book as elaine called: life on the refrigerator door. finished it on the train, feel so nerdy, yucks. but haha, its nice. so, who cares. OH, second thing feeling accomplished abt is that i cooked porridge for dinner for the family! :DDD century egg+minced pork porridge! haha, yummy yet healthy! no salt only a little bit of soy sauce, yet its nice cos the century egg's essence has gone into the porridge, haha. i bought the minced pork too, chosen by meihui. :DDD thanks. (((:
now i finally understand whats FAMILY. i realised i dont have a family. my family has torn apart. what i see when i go home are just four walls. i dont see life, like before. its never the same like last time, never. my family has torn apart. my dad works from morning till night and i dont even get to see him till the weekends. oh yes, i see him, i see him sleeping and he sees me sleeping. my mum, she hangs out with her friends, only at home for household stuff and she..argh, my mum, some ppl know whats with her. my sis, studying in aust. cant even see her! dont even talk to her. even if we talk, we will just be teasing each other: hey noob! and its the end. we dont have a topic to talk abt. my bro was working previously, so his shifts.. i dont see him till sundays. now his studying in NUS, even if he doesnt have tutorials or lectures, he goes to the school lib to study. now i know why, everyone doesnt want to stay at home. sis insist on studying overseas, bro insists to go out of home to study. why? i dont get why these kinda stuff is happenin to my family. i dont know why. can someone tell me? what i want most now is to have a peaceful meal and a perfect week with my family, with nice memories, and no more quarrels. because i know i cant hang in there anymore, i cant. i am tired of these kinda stuff, i need a break. I NEED A SHOULDER FOR ME TO LEAN ON.
had shooting in the morning yesterday. total piece of shit la. cause elaine suddenly told me that must meet yesterday because its the only day her house got nobody. yuheng and patrick also say okay alrdy. so, left with me. yuheng keep pyscho-in gme say must go must go. but i alr meeting jane, and its made like long ago. + she sacrificed her project time jsut to go out with me. but wait, i didn know i agreed on going out with her, tsk. i knew its impossible for me to satisfy both sides and i knew there will definitely be a side where i need to disappoint. so in the end, i realised that since going to vivo can be gone anytime, might as well sacrifice that side. called my mum and she scolded the shit out of me. ARRGHH. was my turn to shoot after that, imagined her face there, and shot her. the feeling's really great. :DDD
met yuheng and patrick after that at pop. then went to macs. yuheng treated elaine to macs, woah. haha, i told you you are a rich kid. mum called and i was quarelling with her on the phone like shit. it was damn loud in macs but who cares. meihui and pearlyn were asking me to chil and move out of macs to talk. i was damn angry with my mum. why cant i go to my friends house? why cant i do a hw with my ffriends? why cant you just be as open-minded as all of your 3 children? why muzst you think soo much? why cant u have confidence in your child? WHY? hang up the phone on her and almost cried because its the first time she talked to me this way. yuheng was like, dont cry leh debbie. patrick was like dont cry leh, hen ke pa leh. patrick was damn funny. he was like saying, what kinda of mum man? totally made me laughed. :DDD pearlyn and meihui were asking me to chill. i almost felt like punching the wall but i know i cant. i told myself my mum scold me cos she loves me. but no matter how much i try to calm myself down, i still dont get why she doesnt trust me. so the tragedy continues and i went to elaine's, lying to my mum that i was at tpy lib. its a white lie, so i feel nth's wrong. do project with yuheng,patrick and elaine, confirm laugh one! hahahah! was damn fun, with all the jokes around! HAHAHAHA! of course with the finger guessing game, its great. but i keep losing! :((( elaine did the video recording after that. spent 4 hours recording, with al the NGs. in the end, the recording was only almost 2 min. tsk. recording was damn fun! next time if we were to do recording, cannot look at patrick or yuheng! their faces will make you laugh! hahahaha!
went home with yuheng and patrick after that, the 2 guys were teasing like what my mum will do to me. hahaha. doing project with the right people rocks. concluded with this on the way home:
pictures for janice first! haha, cam-whored in the lounge. :P
adapted from jasmine's notebook:
i swear that the first day of camp sucks. its now 9.20 pm, and we have not bathed. everyone is restless and i am assigned to the group leader which i know i cant handle. same place as p5, but we are sleeping in tents -.- lunch sucks to the max. no more mentions. dinner was better, but still, i prefer home-cooked food. had retarded night walk.. [saw giant centipedes, jasmine!] did cheer sessions just now for close to two hour. everyone was hyper at first but haha, in the end, everyone knows the result. retardness. oh ya, we did whale watching during the day. it was pretty fun with patrick beside me. hahas, but during the game, i told myself that i hate miss lee. did abseiling, the past one. [nonono, still got people after you what.] i was pretty afarid because i did not do this before, and the other grp did flying fox. he trainer was teachin me damn patiently. hahas, thanks man. i was too tensed and i cant let go of the string. haha, when coming down, ginola came to hold me. thanks :DDD in the moment of rashness, i said 'i love ginola', haha, omgosh. did low wall before that. grp two first. yuheng and jiafa help to hold everyone up for my group, me and shihao did it. lifting up people was never an easy task. esp when the person has no sense of control and start giving you a kick in the face. arrgh. forgot about my yet-to-really-recover-injuries. i was the last to go and everyone was like' debie!debbie!debbie!' touched to to the max! hahas! oh, build tents the first thing. late to mention., haha! no further mentions, cause i hate it. tired now, zzZ, THE END! 2/9/09 9.38 pm sitting on the bench, with the wind blowing on my face. (:
SYFC was great today, just that because we slacked a lot.(: cornelia didn come today cause shes not feeling well. get well sooon, cornelia.(: everyone had a hair cut-junkun, jeremy. was pretty werid. LOL. flew a few rounds, the plane was playing with me. it purposely went faster when its my turn. janice was laughing away and i was like wth? it didn happen during jason and senior's turn, argh. had instant cup noodles for break. shared with janice, which she brought along, haha. we had the curry chicken flavour-super, first. it was great! then we had the tom yum flavour, fairprice brand. haha. was forced by syazana to finish the hot and burning tom yum soup! i was eating the last strand of noodles then she push the whole cup into my mouth! haha, wth. cam-whore with janice after that in the lounge, heehee. oh, and there was this guy, shit i forgot his name, haha, anyway, cos beber was talking crap again under the hot sun. so unknown ask me to lend him my water. i was like for what? then he say, drink la. he just grabbed it and drank from the mouth, omgosh la. i not even close to him, only like talk to him a few times, and smile to each other only, then he drink my water, oh gosh.
OH YA, i promised janice to blog abt this: Ming Jun is such a nice guy. haha, his the most proper guy among the year 1s. haha, those few who are more hyper--wayne, jason, mingjun, unknow[mentioned above] clinton, and some others. wayne-i dont like him, no idea why. jason-his character, a bit too nice leh dunno why. but his a nice guy, i must admit. mingjun-haha, his great! his very gentlemanly, smart and has a good character! haha! omgosh la, his so damn hot. LOL.
DAY 1 [this is adapted from notebook, it was written during camp. DINNERTIME] i shall post it later, cos i cant find the notebook. :p
DAY 2 [reflections] did rafting. only built "boats" and only 8 ppl went into the water. it was pretty boring, so skips. did the challenge ropes course. quite fun, did the leap of faith. so lame. had the sarimbun challenge. it was damn fun! HAHA, forgot what we did, but still, its fun. did meuse too, was quite okay... rock wall, WOAH. rock-climbing rocks man. i swear i will definitely meet up with cornelia, janice, phoebe, E E and syazana man! must train up! nobody really make up to quite high, but still, i know 1 faith rocks. campfire preparation after that, haha. campfire was pretty lame. jia fa was selected as the most macho or rather sexiest guy in our class to perform. he was blindfolded and he did the aesthetics steps, so cute! oopppss.. yuheng was talking the whole night that he want sugar prata. yuen kai was saying that he doesnt have shampoo, somehow. oh, and the girls had a mini party last night. (: [junru, elaine, pearlyn, mitreni and me]
DAY 3 [reflections] carried floorboard, was damn tired after that, breakfast. stuff. area cleaning was damn retarded. cleaned the white tentage, good larh. at least better than cleaning the toilet. PRIZE PRESENTATION!! I TOLD YOU 1 FAITH IS HOT AND SEXY. WE GOT THE FIRST AND SECOND POSITIONS! cos each class is split into 2 grps, yea, grp 1 and 2. so grp 1 and 2 got the first two places, and coincidentally, we are the same class! I TOLD YOU 1 FAITH IS HOT AND SEXY. i love 1 faith, 1 faith just rocks. :DDDD
enough of camp, i needa say whats in my heart!
i hate people who trys to get attention. Roann, Julyn are all pure bitches. i seriously cant stand roann. outdoor cooking, everyone was contributing to cook, in the end, she was the only one squating there, finshing the entire thing, freak. julyn, she is so damn trying to get attention. or rather, i shall say, she is lusting. what i am about to say now is just for your eyes-contains vulgar. i dont give a damn shit if any guy who once flirt with her reads this, but still. its so damn freaking obvious that she is not those who always talk to guys, like what elaine does.[tt] or least those hyper kind, and then she still wanna act in front of everyone she has been buddies with the guys for years, fuck.
i hate people who ACT CUTE. elaine, gladys, junru, pearlyn will defintely know that i am those when i am not happy with sth, i will just say it out. i am those straightforward kind who will just say everything on my mind. i hate ppl who act cute in front of me. esp when they try to show you they got temper, eewws. crap. those kind are better off dead. they give you the feeling that they are innocent and act cute in front of you. they betray anytime, you nvr know whats on their mind, you never know what they may do to you next. creepy. eg., they expand their eyes over super normal stuff, i hate it. u know, if its like exciting stuff, u will be like woah, i am okay with it. but.. sighs, forget abt it. nobody will ever know how i feel. retardness.
i keep telling myself that nobody is perfect, nobody is flawless, but still, i cant seem to tolerate things anymore when ppl whom you thought were close to you were actually those whom you cant trust. instead, those whom you dont really talk to are those who really help you.
OH, i hate nicholas guah. he is a super sexist. he discrimates girls. i hate it. argh.
sleeping on the cold cold floor on a rainy day is goood. practically slacked the whole day. packed camp bag, stuff. i am damn sad now, so dont try to piss me and i am not in the mood for anything now. ): did history hw, stuff. my camp bag is bloated, and the zip may just burst anytime, i think. and i cant believe i brought a jacket, listened to my mum, oh gosh, i became such a girl who listens to my mum out of the sudden. and i cant believe she passed me a nike one, woah. i guess i will just use it as my pillow cum poncho since its soft and waterproof, haha. i hope the camp arrangement wont be according to reg. number or i swear i wont enjoy myself. its just not the correct people to be with. camps will be loved at times, times not, depending on the people whom u are grouped with. i wanna be grouped with someone i am close with, i can talk to, someone who will share my joy, listen to my rants. someone whom i can talk to. imagine being grouped with tian zi, roann, julyn, mitreni, omgosh, i guess i will faint and just fake up a MC.
i dont wanna be grouped with someone who sticks with you just because u are popular. i hate people who are like this, suck up to you, and THINKS THAT YOU HATE HER WHEN IN FACT YOU DONT. the last kind of ppl i mentioned are the ones i hate the most, they jump into conclusions. ALWAYS. this is called craziness. i kept telling myself,[like what cornelia does] that nobody is perfect in this world and that i have my bad points too. i told myself, i cannot mind other ppl, because nobody is perfect in this world. but i hate ppl who thinks that what she is doing is perfectly okay, knows nth about sth called image, knows nth about eliqutte when she has been told and hinted a lot of times. i too hate ppl who defend someone just because he likes her. he doesnt even know whats wrong and right because he is purely OBESSED with her. you no longer know him because he thinks his okay, when IN FACT HIS NOT. i hate ppl like this. you are not in the correct mind anymore. you are no longer able to think anymore. you had better straighten out your thinking now before you regret it in future. i am giving you one last chance, to trust me once more, listen to me, and give up on her.
i realised sth abt human after calming myself down these few days.
people whom seem to be your best friend, are those who really hurts u the most when they do sth. they get real harsh on you that nobody else has before and they do things that betray you, and they were the last to expect betrayals from. stuff happened, and i finally know what some ppl mean by the cunning side of everyone.
some ppl just dont dare to voice their thoughts out, like what i said to koiheng the other day. they dont dare to do this and that, WTH. will u just have some guts?
some ppl are reallly cunning, they appear to be ur best friend, try to know everything abt u, but end, does nth but spread abt it. and regarding that, i still cant get over it. er hem.
dance was fun yesterday. haha, though i know we didnt do as well, its the process that mattters what. when i went home, i started blasting my phone and danced to it. and i thought how silly we were not daring enough and to just stick to normal youtube's lame vid.
i just cant accept whats going on these few days. ppl are so hot-tempered and you are realy like HUH?!? whats wrong with you. the cunning side of ppl is just too scary, too scary for me to adapt and to accept. i just cant do it.
lessons learnt: -trust nobody except yourself. and then again, i say, everyone has a cunning side and the cunning side of me is that i have decided to keep things to myself and not to talk abt it anymore. i guess its the best decision i have ever made in my life.
yesterday was fun fun.((: went to shi bei's house for her early bday party and 6 gra class gathering(though like ard 10 6 grac-ians turned up due to eoys.) anws, met jer early early at 330 to go northpoint first to buy presents.(((: took neos too at timezone but the quality was damn freakin lousy. cos its 3 bucks. -.-
went to interchange and met confusing buses! irritating! D: took 85* in the end and the journey to her house was only 15 mins? so fast! btw, i like sjhibei's add. 15 countryside road. the end.((: so cool right? only 3 words.
anws, met new friends from RGS(since shi bei is there) they were real nice kays! they were damn outgoing and loud, as in seriously loud! and they made me change the impressions of RGS girls. i thought they will be wearing specs, carryying a book with them ard like a nerd. but who knows, they are real fun to be wtiH! :DDD JingYi and JingYao, they are really fun and were the first 2 jer and i met. (((: amazing things happened, which seems like a curse( a nice and cool and positive curse though )
anws, soon, ppl start popping out. all the 6 grac-ians who went were Koi Heng, Elvin, KaiJun, Jian LIn, Jermaine, Fanny. thats all. sads sads. nvm, wait for mr ng's wedding to come then see everyone! yay! :DDD
spoiled tong's reputation. created trouble on fb. :P oopppss! bully junior sia! haha, but well, debbie and jermaine are always bad. :p
created trouble for koi heng too. msg-ed his soon-to-be-girlfriend on his behalf like, i seriously like you. and i concluded that i cant stand boys' thinking, right, koiheng and alvin and kaijun? i even called the girl on koiheng's behalf, say sth real funny like, hey i am koi heng's super super good friend, and he really really like you, you know. haha, think abt what i said and i am serious. if u find it awkard i will hang up. then talked with her for a while then hang up, so cool.((:
stuff happened..
went home at 12+...
sent jer home..
she left her house at bei's house..
the end..
OH YAH! SHI BEI'S ANOTHER FRIEND called jolene. she is damn HOT okay. as in seriouly hot. she's gotta perfect figure and tan, sexy to the max. isaac almost drooled, haha. too bad, forgot to take pic with her cos she came late and went home early.
all of shibei's clique girls are damn chiou, as in really chiou. not like my imp. og RGS. haha, RGS, rules, the girls RULES MORE.
group pictures.(((: one of the hot guy we saw online? jer and i found jeremy very cute.((:
jingyi and me.((: last pic for the day. ((:
i dont kknow why there is this extra image after this video. haha, i am lazy to edit it, so just leave it there. :P
went for lunch with jasmine aft. school at s11. had chicken rice with jasmine.((: nice. and its only cheaply 3.30 bucks wiih a big bowl of soup.((: went playground to meet elaine and pearlyn. then jasmine and i went to sit the round round thing to spin spin. my first or second round i damn dizzy then jasmine went out first then i ask her stop cos i was flying out but she didn! she turned it mopre extreme instead! finally stopped and i stoodd up and walked, like a drunkard. ten i wanted to mo0ve towards the right but keep going to the left. then i banged the metal notice board! its was like,:BANG! damn loud! pearlyn and elaine kenna shocked then all quickly turned ard. haha, jasmine was like OH-MY-GOSH! ARE U OKAY?? then she quickly help me up. suffereed a few blue-black on knee and on my chin where i kenna hit.-.- then truth-ed with them adn i stuck out my left leg into the sun. so then again, i am unevenly tanned again. cos the front of on top my left knee is tanned and the behind is still as white. the right leg is still as white as ever.-.- I WANT TO GET TANNNEDDD!!! ARGH! EVENLY TANNED!! uneven tans sucks okay, to the max.)): spinned and spinned with elaine and pearlyn. pearlyn first round buai sai liao. she was damn pale aft. that. elaine was quite goodd. she didnt fly out like me and jasmine. i seriously flew out of the thing once but jasmine flew out twice. haha. i sat the most rounds and i was damn not feeling well on the train. cos i keep wanting to vomit but nth gets out. alighted at khatib for a rest and get some fresh air. sat there, almost vommited but swallowed it back. yea, its gross.-.- thanks jasmine who accompanied me.(((:
was damn pale when reached home. my mum thought i died before. WTH. saw eugene at yishun inter. thanks eugene for walking me home, right to my doorstep, thanks.((: if eugene wasnt with me, i guess i would have just fainted with no one knowing. haha, held his hand throughout cos i really cant walk cos i was really dizzzyy. thanks eugene! :DDD
lazy to post pics. will just kope from jasmine's blog. HAHA!
some stuff happened today. was exciting yet i was in a deep dilemma over it. i was affected the whole day over it. i dont know if u were, well, all i knew was while i was laughing, i know i wasnt really laughing. hard to understand? nvm.
lunched out with elaine and pearlyn and mos. talked abt stuff. HAHA. went to swensens with mum to celebrate her bday after that and had ice-cream. BLOATED! then waited for bro and had BBQ chicken for dinner. bro treated! :DDD
i found out sth DAMN INTERESTING TODAY! my bro had a gf when he in sec sch. cos there was this unknown num who msged and i showed him. he ask me guss whose it. then he said, she was my first gf. i was huh!? he then said the girl was from nanyang. then he continued eating his chicken. i was like aiyah, hwa chong guys sure go with NYGh girls one, not amazing! and he choked! i was laughing my ass off luckily not a lot of ppl.((: then talked abt super random stuff then they suddenly ask me if i got bf. i was like, no..wont la..then my bro keep saying, have then say la..nth is wrong. we wont blame u. i was damn shocked and stuff.. fine, no more elaboration.. BYE!
went for cmc today. sabotaged elaine, heehee. gotta some retarded pics of her, well...haha! took loadsa pics in the A&L centre. HAHA! was damn fun in short.(:
waited for jasmine at circle line to go home with her with elaine and pearlyn.(: talked super random and MATURE stuff. well.. haha!
i concluded with something today which nobody will believe. elaine, jasmine and pearlyn scolds fuck! haha, so cool, never expected it to happen! i will post the pics next time because i am really busy these few days, as in real busy.
suffering these few days as in i am really confused abt some stuff..
i am really confused about whether to give it to you. should i? should i not? can you tell me what to do? i really gotta a lot to tell you, as in seriously a lot.
the nice nice plastic bag.(: hot... the shirt i bought for kel! :D haha, random pic! taken in aust., on the city cat! MISSING THE CITY CAT TO THE MAX NOW! )))):
i was taking a pic of my bro's present when he suddenly came home! shall give him at 1200.(:
tagged by jasmine to do a quiz.(:
answer this quiz truthfully. its a MUST. for every answer you put as 'dunno' or something with the same meaning as that, you must put FIVE people's name to tag. so, if you dont put any 'dunno', you just have to tag ONE person [or more, as you wish], and if you put ten 'dunno', you have to tag fifty people. get it? :D
#1 what's your first favorite song? ANS: Dancing in the moonlight by toploader!
#2 Who's your first enemy? ANS:err..forgot! :P
#3 Who's your first favorite teacher? ANS: MS SERENE ONG! :D
#4 Have you scored any hundred marks for any of your exams? ANS: yea, when i was in pri 1 for my chi. -.-
#5 Do you prefer Deepavali, Hari raya, Christmas, or Chinese new year more? ANS: chinese new year! $$$
#6 What is your favorite english name? ANS: samantha, or rather, i dont have a fav. one. :D
#7 Who is you first indian friend? ANS: ramitha! :P
#8 Who helped you to make a blog;xanga;wordpress etc when you just started? ANS: jasmine! (((:
#9 Do you prefer colouring or drawing? ANS:COLOURING! colouring is always easier.(:
#10 What's your favourite birthday present? ANS: my ipod! (from kel, dor and krystal!)
Now, tag your friends according to how many 'dunno' you've put, or if none, as much as you like!
i dont have any dunno lehsss.. okay, i shall tag all the 1 faithians with blog to do it! (((: HAHA.
i jsut gave him the shirt a min ago and he loves it! yay! although he knows the price,-.- since FCUK is just opp. nike at wisma, but well, his 21 and deserves a nice nice present! HAHA! yay, he loves it although its the white one and his collecting the black one. haha, yay! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BROTHER KELVIN! you are 21 now!
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to kelvin, happy birthday to you!
janice is headless!?!??! i love her jacket though.
do u think she is shitting really or jsut some fake thing? censored!
if u look clearly, the clear things at the background are actually the scenery of s'pore the suntec and UOB buildings..u know..
my fav. pic of the day
we occupied the whole table..with food thats occupying everything. HAHA.
there was no syfc today but still, went back to study with E E and janice. its pure handcore mugging, seriously. they were there since 8 and i went ard 11. haha, da bao-ed wonton and chicken rice..the smell is tempting. studied, ate, meddled with microwave and toaster, invaded the kitchen.(cos we were at the cafe) stuff happened... went to the rooftop then to the lounge to sleep. then the SG came to say we cant lie down there in the lounge. -.- went back to cafe.
talked abt SUPER SICK stuff, as in really sick. like sex, how a guy touches another guy's ass, how sick is EE 's friend, and how sick is their SQ..hahaha, laughed to the max. and i said super loud, u must be beware of HIM... when junkun walked in and he turned back to me..haha..philip wong, yappy, beber, came in to check out on us, lame. then stuff.. went home at 5+..productive studying cos E E and janice really study, as in really study, then i ws thinking if i mix with them often, will i be a geek? cool. imagine debbie with the baggy specs on her face and carrying a book on her hand 24/7. cool.
dear readers, the following msg is nc 16 due to sexual reference. pls do not read it, honestly, if u are under 16. thanks. ITS PURELY abt SEX. and it may excite some readers. idk.
what kind of job excited u the best? blowjobs, handjobs and all the rest. a suck, a rub, a tasty lick, letting him put in yourvirgina, his erected dick.the expressions on ur face makes me go faster. the moan u gave made me rub harder. i ran my fingers along ur genitals , in prepartion for ur cunnilingus.i saw ur erection, phallus in position.i saw ur white ejaculation. full of salty bitter semen. hungry, tired, and still gettting sucked, i closed my eyes while being fucked.
went wisma with elaine after school. she accompanied me to get my bro and mum's bday present. thanks.:))) bought a FCUK shirt for bro, a dorothy perkin's bag for mum. debbie's broke, to the max. a lot of super funny things happened, shall not be mentioned. i was quite worried at first, bt well, its debbie and elaine's dirty little secret. *winks to elaine* [the running part, i meant] walked ard for almost an hour just to look for foood.=.= walked from wisma to ion, then from ion to wisma then to wheelock and finally at taka. spotted mos and we became 2 mad women on the loose, shouting on our way to mos since we are all tired and hungry. and when elaine and debbie are together, what else can we do? heehee. :DDD oh, spent almost a hundred bucks, damn it. feel so poor out of the sudden. ):
smuggled the presents back home with much difficulty. then stuffed everything in to my bag. haha.
meeting the aesthetics ppl on mon? is it on? whose going? i dont really feel like dancing in the void deck sia..so damn freaking unglam. -.- whose in? errr...meihui, gladys,sujie, yongqing,yuheng, julian, jiafa,jiawen and ginola. thats all i guess? but still, so many ppl dancing in the void deck, make so much noise, err...
caught by alsogolf during recess! WTH. during recess, when we are gonna leave!! wth! elaine, gladys and me. was like giving her the -.- face. need to sign contract! walao, first time only sia! cos of my socks and skirt.-.- agreement-if we were to breach the contract, phone will be confiscated for a week or in house suspension for 1 week! WTH right? WTH right? WTH right!?!?!? was damn angry! anws, mr pilo wasn't here so his gotta free period. played finger guessing game with elaine, gladys, jasmine. meihui, sukie and darilyn joined after that. loser must do 10 push-up for gladys, must do 20 star-jump if she lost. haha, i was the only doing push-ups. -.- did more than 100 for today.-.- anws, went for lunch with elaine, gladys, junru, pearlyn and mitreni. reached kfc, thought i lost my wallet, ran back all the way to sch, to look for it. somehow it was on the teacher's table, haha. saw jasmine and jixin before that. then when came back, talked with jasmine for 1/2 hr, then ran back to kfc. by the time i reached, they alr finshed their food.-.- anws, stuff happened and i trained home with mitreni.(: its the end. (:
note: -thanks cornelia for telling me everything. u are my best friend now! :DDD - i learnt to trust nobody except yourself. -its hurts ttm when u find out your closest friends are hiding things from you. -i learn that there are no true friends in this world, i learnt my lesson.
i checked my mail recently and i gotta a conclusion. thanks krystal for the email u sent me. i was very touched of what u said. and as i read, i cried. it taught me how i shall change my thinking and that be more open-minded than what i am now. krystal too taught me that i should be glad that my family members are all either working real hard or studying real hard, like for bro, he studies hard everyday at the school lib and that sis is trying to get a degree there in aust.! i should be happy that we are all striving for the best and that this is all for our future. i must think on the good side, that my dad is working seriously hard, and that if he doesnt give a damn shit abt his job, equals to no car, no dining at restaraunts, no more branded stuff, etc. i must be positive.
note to krystal:
thanks so much for telling me all the bad things that i have been thru. u really cheered me up when i thought i am really done with this family. THANKS A LOT for the e-mail, and that it really is nice of you to send me sth like this. swwweeeetttt, to the MAX. haha, i can really laugh now, my hearts out. and yea, i am really happy to have known great friends who will laugh with me. they were always there to share my joy and cheer me up when i am done! they were always my craaazzyyy(s) and yea, i love them as much as i love you! i really miss you, and i hope to see you again, REAL SOON. (: I LOVE YOU, TO THE MAX. MUACKSSSSS!!! :*
misunderstandings, u suck. so many things happened recently, regardless of whether its domestic affairs or just some problems with friends. this whole thing sucks man. why arent human perfect? why must human make mistakes? to err is human. i dont want to be a human anymore. i dont wanna make mistakes. i want to be a perfectionist. WHY? WHY DO THINGS THAT I DONT LIKE KEEP HAPPENING? WHY IS IT THAT WHAT I WANT FOR NEVER HAPPENS? ALL THE UNGLY TRUTH KEEPS REVEALING. i hate this whole thing, u suck, to the max. you make ppl cry, yet never cheer ppl up. WHY MUST SECRETS OF TRUTH BE REVEALED WHEN I THOUGHT I ALR KNEW THE WHOLE OF THE TRUTH? things are so complicating..i hate it! can someone tell me why??? i keep telling myself i must calm down, i read up on psychology books, yet its of no use, or rather liitle use. sighs, problems sucks. life sucks.
anw, was supopsed to go east coast in the morning at 6 to support bro for his tria. but well, i was lazy, and even if i want to go, and i got inspired to take part, will my mum alloow?? might as well stay at home and surf the net. i dont know of kel is crazzyy or what, taking tria. EVERY SUNDAY. there was nvr a sunday where he hanged out with me, for a swim at safra, like in the past. or even to bowl. his so busy now that i think he forgot he gotta sis. even if his at home, he needed to study for his tutorials, lectures, stuff. if not, he will be out. conclusion: HAVING A BRO=NO BRO reasons: -his always out to hang out -he needs to studdyyy -i need to study too -no common topics -his got tria. how will i have the time to even l0ook at him? i think i forgot how he looked like too..
i realised that my parents are dumb. the age gap btwn are children are so big. since its so big, what can they ttalk abt? no common topics!! age gap btwn bro:8 years. age gapp btwn sis:9 years. tell me what we can talk abt talk abt bikes? talk abt whats new at Nike? talk abt the newest 2XU suits and stuff?
talk abt the latest HK drama? talk abt whats with the strike going on at UQ? talk abt whats with our parents?
we got no topics! they gotta their friends, i gotta my friends too. i shall learn to depend on my friends more than my family. does my siblings know who are my friends? do they even know who are my closest friends? who will they look for if i am lost? no idea, this is what they will say. do they know my blog add.? no idea. do they even know that i am sec 1 this year? i guess so.
one's in aust. one's busy with his tria. and obessed with bikes and everything. craziness.
today is a lame day. the whole day is wasted. did nothing for the entire day. let me list to you, how a lazy pig survives: 1) wakes up and have breakfast. 2)stare into the air for 4 hours! 3)had lunch 4) watch tv for 2hours 5)went out to northpoint to print pics+get a photo frame+get wrapping paper-3hours 6)came home, wrap present stuff 7)went out for dinner 8) just reached home. see, this is the formula to becoming a pig. trust me, its works.(: birthday presents for Jixin. her bdae on mon. haha, bought her a roxy pencil case+photo frame(of course with a pic with took together). haha, debbie's broke.almost 40 bucks is spent on the present, tsk. debbie needs a finace manager to control her finace!
needa buy present for bro someone! his bdae next mon! die le larh, no money! i was planing to get him a FCUK shirt. went to invade his wardrobe to get some ideas on some other cheaper brands to get and i realised that whats in his wardrobe are-calvin klien, armani, guess, fcuk, and the cheapest one is nike.-.- i cant possibly get a nike for him since he works at nike-wisma atria, and if i were to get sth there, its a plain waste of my money. i NEED INSPIRATIONS! PEOPLE GIVE ME IDEAS! i need to get present for my mum too..dead...omgosh la, i am broke, damn broke.
I NEED IDEAS FOR MY BRO AND MUM'S B-DAE! GIVE ME IDEAS!!!
its prettty nice cos its damn funny. but i feel that the ending came too fast. but still, its a nice movie since the part where they get to control the granny and alex seems so real. its give it 4/5! :DDD
went to catch a movie with ginola and junru today. was supposed to meet at 2.15 to catch the 3.15 G-force 3D. end up, ginola and i were late, so went to catch aliens in the attic at 4 instead. i was the latest, fine, i admit. i reached at ard 3.20. was quite shocked when i saw junru standing together waiting for me at the mrt station. woah, ginola's earlier than me. went amk hub, laugh laugh laugh, talk abt random stuff, buy tickets and i end up treating ginola to the movies. 6 bucks cos of student price, and there goes part of my allowance.-.- ginola paid me back 90cents after that for the ticket which he claims, i think. haha, dont know larh, forgot. was supposed to sit with ginola at first, but haha, not-noob debbie[GINOLA!!! :@] went to rush in first, so end up junru sit beside ginola. HAHHAHA. :p and well, end up sit beside a group of boys. junru's bro friends? or someone that ginola and junru knows cos they were talkin abt it. shall ask them later who are they. the retarded guy beside me was kicking me all the way. damn pissed off! so i kick him back larh, of course! can't let a kiddo bully me, hahaha. junru brought her own chips in, EVEN HER OWN COKE. hahaha, cool. was snatching the chips with ginola. -.- went zone x to play after that. ginola sponssered 5 bucks? i dont know, forgot. junru play basketball, of course. she was damn fuunny la! she was pressing a spoiled machine then she realised after ginola told her. then she went to stnad behind the rowdy boys under the cold air-con till i asked her to move to me. HAHAHA. while waiting for junru, ginola and i went to play silent hill-archade. kenna bullied by him la! GINOLA GO SNATCH MY FOOD-MY COKE, BANANA AND ALL MY ENERGY FOOD. until i got no more life left, then he gave me coke.-.- then cos i was protecting him[i think soo..] then i died first-.- ginola tease me throughout! he say debbie, you sure you from shooting anot? your aiming damn lousy leh! -.- wth. he died 15 seconds after i died. haha, you sure die without me one cos nobody to protect you and help u shoot off the zombies. hahahaha! :P then walked ard, went mos to eat. ginola treat junru and he bought a hotdog bread himself. he asked me what i want to eat, i think he was treating, damn, should have just got the nicest burger in mos! ): wasted. OH YA, ginola snatch my phone and go and see whats inside! was running ard mos like crazy kids in rounds and rounds. walao eh, damn embarrassed sia! ginola, you are gonna die for making me so embarrassed just to run for you. -.- talk crap then mali kampong. ginola insisted on not telling me where he taking train to. he keep saying to vivo. but he live in serangoon, alas, dont know lah.
on the trip to the station, funny things happened. haha, shant say since its too funny that i don't know how to say. and i think junru doesnt know. hahahaha, its damn funny-ginola.[tt] :DDD then ginola say his wallet spoil, ask me buy a new one for him! WTH!?!?!? he using Goldlion wallet now, ask me go buy another Goldlion for him?? OMGOSH larh. i wonder when that day will come.
oh ya, mum and bro's b-dae are coming soon. 21 and 23 sep respectively. shit what shld i buy? IDEAS! i think i am gonna get bro a FCUK shirt since he want to collect the series. but mum, i guess, haha, i shall forget. :P
i am in love with todays date! today's when all the lovers get married, when pregnant woman try to get their baby out of womb today. haha. i was thinking, if i were to get married in future, there wont be a chance again for me to have such a nice date since there are only 12 months in the entire calendar. sads. :((( i want my wedding date to be memorable, as for how is it, i will let my future decide, haha.
shooting sucks to the max today. junhui was a damn jerk. he think he black he big ah? not as in those racist kind, but the black as in junhui's kind, sun-tanned to the max. was damn pissed throughout until in the end stuff happened and i scolded shit-your-ass in his face. he just turned away and walk off. hahaa, i dont give a damn shit to you. :P
feel so accomplished today because debbie did 80 push-ups and 20 sit-ups+2 rounds ard the netball court. well, its not a lot, i know. but stil, i cant believe i didn cheat during the push-ups and sit-ups. HAHA. went to J8 with meihui, elaine and pearlyn. ate at LJS. of course gossip larh! talked about SUPER RANDOM stuff and then haha, we went to invade NTUC. what did we do shall not be mentioned as it contains SLIGHT sexual stuff, you know. went to lib and borrowed books. borrowed a samn book as elaine called: life on the refrigerator door. finished it on the train, feel so nerdy, yucks. but haha, its nice. so, who cares. OH, second thing feeling accomplished abt is that i cooked porridge for dinner for the family! :DDD century egg+minced pork porridge! haha, yummy yet healthy! no salt only a little bit of soy sauce, yet its nice cos the century egg's essence has gone into the porridge, haha. i bought the minced pork too, chosen by meihui. :DDD thanks. (((:
now i finally understand whats FAMILY. i realised i dont have a family. my family has torn apart. what i see when i go home are just four walls. i dont see life, like before. its never the same like last time, never. my family has torn apart. my dad works from morning till night and i dont even get to see him till the weekends. oh yes, i see him, i see him sleeping and he sees me sleeping. my mum, she hangs out with her friends, only at home for household stuff and she..argh, my mum, some ppl know whats with her. my sis, studying in aust. cant even see her! dont even talk to her. even if we talk, we will just be teasing each other: hey noob! and its the end. we dont have a topic to talk abt. my bro was working previously, so his shifts.. i dont see him till sundays. now his studying in NUS, even if he doesnt have tutorials or lectures, he goes to the school lib to study. now i know why, everyone doesnt want to stay at home. sis insist on studying overseas, bro insists to go out of home to study. why? i dont get why these kinda stuff is happenin to my family. i dont know why. can someone tell me? what i want most now is to have a peaceful meal and a perfect week with my family, with nice memories, and no more quarrels. because i know i cant hang in there anymore, i cant. i am tired of these kinda stuff, i need a break. I NEED A SHOULDER FOR ME TO LEAN ON.
had shooting in the morning yesterday. total piece of shit la. cause elaine suddenly told me that must meet yesterday because its the only day her house got nobody. yuheng and patrick also say okay alrdy. so, left with me. yuheng keep pyscho-in gme say must go must go. but i alr meeting jane, and its made like long ago. + she sacrificed her project time jsut to go out with me. but wait, i didn know i agreed on going out with her, tsk. i knew its impossible for me to satisfy both sides and i knew there will definitely be a side where i need to disappoint. so in the end, i realised that since going to vivo can be gone anytime, might as well sacrifice that side. called my mum and she scolded the shit out of me. ARRGHH. was my turn to shoot after that, imagined her face there, and shot her. the feeling's really great. :DDD
met yuheng and patrick after that at pop. then went to macs. yuheng treated elaine to macs, woah. haha, i told you you are a rich kid. mum called and i was quarelling with her on the phone like shit. it was damn loud in macs but who cares. meihui and pearlyn were asking me to chil and move out of macs to talk. i was damn angry with my mum. why cant i go to my friends house? why cant i do a hw with my ffriends? why cant you just be as open-minded as all of your 3 children? why muzst you think soo much? why cant u have confidence in your child? WHY? hang up the phone on her and almost cried because its the first time she talked to me this way. yuheng was like, dont cry leh debbie. patrick was like dont cry leh, hen ke pa leh. patrick was damn funny. he was like saying, what kinda of mum man? totally made me laughed. :DDD pearlyn and meihui were asking me to chill. i almost felt like punching the wall but i know i cant. i told myself my mum scold me cos she loves me. but no matter how much i try to calm myself down, i still dont get why she doesnt trust me. so the tragedy continues and i went to elaine's, lying to my mum that i was at tpy lib. its a white lie, so i feel nth's wrong. do project with yuheng,patrick and elaine, confirm laugh one! hahahah! was damn fun, with all the jokes around! HAHAHAHA! of course with the finger guessing game, its great. but i keep losing! :((( elaine did the video recording after that. spent 4 hours recording, with al the NGs. in the end, the recording was only almost 2 min. tsk. recording was damn fun! next time if we were to do recording, cannot look at patrick or yuheng! their faces will make you laugh! hahahaha!
went home with yuheng and patrick after that, the 2 guys were teasing like what my mum will do to me. hahaha. doing project with the right people rocks. concluded with this on the way home:
pictures for janice first! haha, cam-whored in the lounge. :P
adapted from jasmine's notebook:
i swear that the first day of camp sucks. its now 9.20 pm, and we have not bathed. everyone is restless and i am assigned to the group leader which i know i cant handle. same place as p5, but we are sleeping in tents -.- lunch sucks to the max. no more mentions. dinner was better, but still, i prefer home-cooked food. had retarded night walk.. [saw giant centipedes, jasmine!] did cheer sessions just now for close to two hour. everyone was hyper at first but haha, in the end, everyone knows the result. retardness. oh ya, we did whale watching during the day. it was pretty fun with patrick beside me. hahas, but during the game, i told myself that i hate miss lee. did abseiling, the past one. [nonono, still got people after you what.] i was pretty afarid because i did not do this before, and the other grp did flying fox. he trainer was teachin me damn patiently. hahas, thanks man. i was too tensed and i cant let go of the string. haha, when coming down, ginola came to hold me. thanks :DDD in the moment of rashness, i said 'i love ginola', haha, omgosh. did low wall before that. grp two first. yuheng and jiafa help to hold everyone up for my group, me and shihao did it. lifting up people was never an easy task. esp when the person has no sense of control and start giving you a kick in the face. arrgh. forgot about my yet-to-really-recover-injuries. i was the last to go and everyone was like' debie!debbie!debbie!' touched to to the max! hahas! oh, build tents the first thing. late to mention., haha! no further mentions, cause i hate it. tired now, zzZ, THE END! 2/9/09 9.38 pm sitting on the bench, with the wind blowing on my face. (:
SYFC was great today, just that because we slacked a lot.(: cornelia didn come today cause shes not feeling well. get well sooon, cornelia.(: everyone had a hair cut-junkun, jeremy. was pretty werid. LOL. flew a few rounds, the plane was playing with me. it purposely went faster when its my turn. janice was laughing away and i was like wth? it didn happen during jason and senior's turn, argh. had instant cup noodles for break. shared with janice, which she brought along, haha. we had the curry chicken flavour-super, first. it was great! then we had the tom yum flavour, fairprice brand. haha. was forced by syazana to finish the hot and burning tom yum soup! i was eating the last strand of noodles then she push the whole cup into my mouth! haha, wth. cam-whore with janice after that in the lounge, heehee. oh, and there was this guy, shit i forgot his name, haha, anyway, cos beber was talking crap again under the hot sun. so unknown ask me to lend him my water. i was like for what? then he say, drink la. he just grabbed it and drank from the mouth, omgosh la. i not even close to him, only like talk to him a few times, and smile to each other only, then he drink my water, oh gosh.
OH YA, i promised janice to blog abt this: Ming Jun is such a nice guy. haha, his the most proper guy among the year 1s. haha, those few who are more hyper--wayne, jason, mingjun, unknow[mentioned above] clinton, and some others. wayne-i dont like him, no idea why. jason-his character, a bit too nice leh dunno why. but his a nice guy, i must admit. mingjun-haha, his great! his very gentlemanly, smart and has a good character! haha! omgosh la, his so damn hot. LOL.
DAY 1 [this is adapted from notebook, it was written during camp. DINNERTIME] i shall post it later, cos i cant find the notebook. :p
DAY 2 [reflections] did rafting. only built "boats" and only 8 ppl went into the water. it was pretty boring, so skips. did the challenge ropes course. quite fun, did the leap of faith. so lame. had the sarimbun challenge. it was damn fun! HAHA, forgot what we did, but still, its fun. did meuse too, was quite okay... rock wall, WOAH. rock-climbing rocks man. i swear i will definitely meet up with cornelia, janice, phoebe, E E and syazana man! must train up! nobody really make up to quite high, but still, i know 1 faith rocks. campfire preparation after that, haha. campfire was pretty lame. jia fa was selected as the most macho or rather sexiest guy in our class to perform. he was blindfolded and he did the aesthetics steps, so cute! oopppss.. yuheng was talking the whole night that he want sugar prata. yuen kai was saying that he doesnt have shampoo, somehow. oh, and the girls had a mini party last night. (: [junru, elaine, pearlyn, mitreni and me]
DAY 3 [reflections] carried floorboard, was damn tired after that, breakfast. stuff. area cleaning was damn retarded. cleaned the white tentage, good larh. at least better than cleaning the toilet. PRIZE PRESENTATION!! I TOLD YOU 1 FAITH IS HOT AND SEXY. WE GOT THE FIRST AND SECOND POSITIONS! cos each class is split into 2 grps, yea, grp 1 and 2. so grp 1 and 2 got the first two places, and coincidentally, we are the same class! I TOLD YOU 1 FAITH IS HOT AND SEXY. i love 1 faith, 1 faith just rocks. :DDDD
enough of camp, i needa say whats in my heart!
i hate people who trys to get attention. Roann, Julyn are all pure bitches. i seriously cant stand roann. outdoor cooking, everyone was contributing to cook, in the end, she was the only one squating there, finshing the entire thing, freak. julyn, she is so damn trying to get attention. or rather, i shall say, she is lusting. what i am about to say now is just for your eyes-contains vulgar. i dont give a damn shit if any guy who once flirt with her reads this, but still. its so damn freaking obvious that she is not those who always talk to guys, like what elaine does.[tt] or least those hyper kind, and then she still wanna act in front of everyone she has been buddies with the guys for years, fuck.
i hate people who ACT CUTE. elaine, gladys, junru, pearlyn will defintely know that i am those when i am not happy with sth, i will just say it out. i am those straightforward kind who will just say everything on my mind. i hate ppl who act cute in front of me. esp when they try to show you they got temper, eewws. crap. those kind are better off dead. they give you the feeling that they are innocent and act cute in front of you. they betray anytime, you nvr know whats on their mind, you never know what they may do to you next. creepy. eg., they expand their eyes over super normal stuff, i hate it. u know, if its like exciting stuff, u will be like woah, i am okay with it. but.. sighs, forget abt it. nobody will ever know how i feel. retardness.
i keep telling myself that nobody is perfect, nobody is flawless, but still, i cant seem to tolerate things anymore when ppl whom you thought were close to you were actually those whom you cant trust. instead, those whom you dont really talk to are those who really help you.
OH, i hate nicholas guah. he is a super sexist. he discrimates girls. i hate it. argh.
sleeping on the cold cold floor on a rainy day is goood. practically slacked the whole day. packed camp bag, stuff. i am damn sad now, so dont try to piss me and i am not in the mood for anything now. ): did history hw, stuff. my camp bag is bloated, and the zip may just burst anytime, i think. and i cant believe i brought a jacket, listened to my mum, oh gosh, i became such a girl who listens to my mum out of the sudden. and i cant believe she passed me a nike one, woah. i guess i will just use it as my pillow cum poncho since its soft and waterproof, haha. i hope the camp arrangement wont be according to reg. number or i swear i wont enjoy myself. its just not the correct people to be with. camps will be loved at times, times not, depending on the people whom u are grouped with. i wanna be grouped with someone i am close with, i can talk to, someone who will share my joy, listen to my rants. someone whom i can talk to. imagine being grouped with tian zi, roann, julyn, mitreni, omgosh, i guess i will faint and just fake up a MC.
i dont wanna be grouped with someone who sticks with you just because u are popular. i hate people who are like this, suck up to you, and THINKS THAT YOU HATE HER WHEN IN FACT YOU DONT. the last kind of ppl i mentioned are the ones i hate the most, they jump into conclusions. ALWAYS. this is called craziness. i kept telling myself,[like what cornelia does] that nobody is perfect in this world and that i have my bad points too. i told myself, i cannot mind other ppl, because nobody is perfect in this world. but i hate ppl who thinks that what she is doing is perfectly okay, knows nth about sth called image, knows nth about eliqutte when she has been told and hinted a lot of times. i too hate ppl who defend someone just because he likes her. he doesnt even know whats wrong and right because he is purely OBESSED with her. you no longer know him because he thinks his okay, when IN FACT HIS NOT. i hate ppl like this. you are not in the correct mind anymore. you are no longer able to think anymore. you had better straighten out your thinking now before you regret it in future. i am giving you one last chance, to trust me once more, listen to me, and give up on her.
Hello, i am Debbie. Well, i guess you half know that.
I am a damn fan of Supernatural and planes.
A SYFC-ian(Singapore Youth Flying Club) and a pistol shooter.
Try to be funny and i shoot you.
I feel that Singaporeans are seriously narrow-minded. Now in the process of trying to get people to be open-minded.
Friends makes my life. [:
Sometimes when you face tons and sons of bitches out there, you just gotta fight back.
Guys sucks ttm. Oh, i am a sexist, thats why.
Be nice to me, and i will be nice to you. (:
Tag my blog. (:
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group pictures.(((:
one of the hot guy we saw online? jer and i found jeremy very cute.((:
last pic for the day. ((:
the nice nice plastic bag.(:
hot...
the shirt i bought for kel! :D
haha, random pic! taken in aust., on the city cat! MISSING THE CITY CAT TO THE MAX NOW! )))):
janice is headless!?!??! i love her jacket though.
do u think she is shitting really or jsut some fake thing? censored!
if u look clearly, the clear things at the background are actually the scenery of s'pore the suntec and UOB buildings..u know..
we occupied the whole table..with food thats occupying everything. HAHA.
its prettty nice cos its damn funny. but i feel that the ending came too fast. but still, its a nice movie since the part where they get to control the granny and alex seems so real. its give it 4/5! :DDD
pictures for janice first! haha, cam-whored in the lounge. :P
