i think this will be my last post.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
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i have decided. i think this will be my last post on this blog. maybe i will post again, when something big happens. i dont think i will be updating anymore. as for why, i find that since a blog is for you to say whatever you wanna say, then if you can't, whats the point. (i am not referring to anyone) too many things have happened and i need time, i need time to calm down. i will update when i feel better or when the time is right, or when i am just free. i will update when i am happy. i promise i will try my very best to update, i promise.

i have moved to wordpress(for my own view). as for whats the add., i wont say. too bad, it just for my own view. haha, bye, everyone.

seeya.

debbie typed.



i have too many things to tell you. to say the truth, i really can't give up. but i want to tell you that i am willing to give up everything for you, i am willing, really. i am willing to give up the whole forest for a tree. whatever that you said, i can't accept it, i really can't. i cried for you, and i asked f it was worth it. i knew immediately, the answer is YES. did what you said came deeply from your heart? i don't believe so. her 9 words hit me hard, real hard. ** ****'* ***** *** ****** ***** ** ****'* ****** **. it hit me hard, i can't accept it, really. did what she said is true? i cried the moment she told me. i am sad, really sad about it.

i let the rain hit me today, the entire day. i stood in the rain, and it made me wake up. i asked myself repeatedly, why am i crying? why am i crying in the rain, in school? is it worth it? is it worth giving up my everything for you? what's on your mind exactly? what are you hiding from me? i am confused, i am confused over you. i tried to forget about you. but once again, the rain woke me up again, making me ask myself if i really want to forget you. today, i seemed to have got the answer. i DON'T want to forget you, no matter how i am forced. i DON'T want. i am not willing to. you made me shed so much tears, you made me cry. you made my life turn upside down. as for the question you asked me, i said the truth. i gotta a lot to tell you and say, but its not that i find no point in telling you. it was actually...it was actually because i did NOT have the courage to tell you so.

remember that night? i wished the one who accompanied me was you instead of him through the night. i cried in front of him, i asked him what i should do. i admit, i did drink, but it was for you. i am sorry for breaking my promise, i am really sorry.

however, i wanna THANK you for turning my life upside down, THANKS A LOT.
debbie typed, AGAIN.



one last phrase for the post: it's only okay to call someone stupid if they are acting like a smartass.


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